you picked a fine time to leave me, lucille
so the picture you painted one christmas is no longer around
and neither are the socks you brought one birthday trying to be funny - but i wore them anyway because the old ones had holes
i miss the socks with the holes
i sat at a coffee shop today writing pieces of a script that began much like we did
a bit confusing - but simple nonetheless
coffee shops don't do it for me anymore
and i've been trying to get you to call me for the past month
word on the horn is you're playing house with your ex boyfriend
'but you don't get your dude back like that'
my number hasn't changed
it's been turned off a few times thanks to tmobile's fuck ups
but the number is still the same
and you haven't called me
you picked a fine time to leave me lucille
you can't even look me in the face anymore
i've started drinking again - drinking again
bottles of vodka and barefoot moscato
whoever is standing downwind of me is wearing chance perfume and drinking espresso
i'm sorry if the train of thought here gets derailed every so often
i'm not stable
there was confusion with that last letter you left
"don't let him take me. don't let him handle me and drive me mad"
there was something very gershwin about it.
something very porgy and bess about it
and the maxwell album is good but it will never beat out urban hang suite
'lead me on girl if you want
take my heart and my love
take of me all that you want
and if there's a thing that you need
i'd give you the breath that i breath
and if ever you yearn for the love in me
whenever whereever whatever
baby'
we practiced conceiving children to that song
hoping for at least one boy
your facebook status changed to 'married to' some clown
and i've been trying to get you to call for the past month
you hate me now because he can't live up to his potential no matter how hard he tries
you can't look me in the face because i remind you of a life that can no longer happen for you.
i remind you of that time you were happiest about your weight loss - and you said you'd never gain weight with me because you only gained weight when you were depressed.
you're mad at me because you're at your heaviest.
you picked a fine time to leave me, lucille
this may come as some surprise
but - i miss you
is it a crime that i still want you
and i want you to want me too?
you took his love
but it doesn't feel like mine
and i've been trying to get you to call me for a month
surely you want me back
i still want you
and i want you to want me too
i still love you!
i can't give you more that
surely you want me back.
you picked a fine time to leave me, lucille
